I did not imagine I would be ever be writing about manifesting healing chronic illness. When I did imagine writing it though, I didn’t imagine it this way. Whenever I envisioned writing something like this, it was from the other side of things. Shiny, brand new, and completely healed.
That is not exactly the place I am in currently.
Currently I am in the thick of things where it is messy, confusing, and sometimes so dark I do whatever I can to keep sight of the light in front of me. I remind myself that the physical reality is above all else a programmable illusion. And that get I get to decide what I experience. I continue to learn and unlearn, shift beliefs, and program new ones that are supportive of what I am trying to create.
I thought about waiting to write this. For when everything was wrapped up and tied in a nice and neat little bow. But I don’t think that would be helpful for me. Or for you.
So today I am writing anyway. Not from a perfect place, but from an honest one. A place where I have learned so much. My hope is that I can help just one person see themselves and their circumstances differently. Or at least make one person feel less alone.
Does Manifestation Have A Limit? Can You Really Manifest Healing Chronic Illness?
This is the question I kept coming back to. Sometimes I approached it with curiosity. Sometimes I approached it with complete desperation, alone and crying in the middle of the night. But I always came back to it. I have been studying religion, metaphysics, and spiritual principles for more than half of my life. It is the very foundation I have built my life on. I believe it so deeply and wholeheartedly. There is nothing you cannot create for yourself. Millions of dollars, luxury homes, a thriving business, the loving relationship of your dreams. It is all possible. I have not truly struggled with faith in these principles for many, many years.
As a teacher of this work, it has been a humbling experience.
That belief came to a screeching halt when it came to health and my physical body.
Let me give you a brief history.
I have struggled with health anxiety and general anxiety since I was eight years old. For as long as I can remember worried about my physical body and what might happen to it. I was raised in a household full of hypochondriacs and fear. The general tone was anxious, tense, and fearful so it wasn’t exactly a surprise things ended up the way they did.
Along with the mental struggles that anxiety presented, I have also struggled with different chronic conditions since I was thirteen.
You might notice I don’t refer to specific chronic illness diagnosis and names of things very much. This is for a reason. More on that later.
Anyway, these conditions presented themselves in different ways. Hormone issues, multiple skin conditions, constant aches and pains, fatigue, debilitating anxiety.
It has been apart of my life for most of it.
Anyway, back to faith.
I have a lot of it.
The kind that I have witnessed move my own personal mountains again and again. Faith that has helped me achieve the ‘impossible’, faith that has helped me beat the odds time and time again.
But when it came to my physical body and health there were words that seemed so much bigger than my faith.
Words like hereditary, genetic, chronic, incurable.
These words made me feel small. Powerless. Completely helpless.
My physical body was where my faith in my ability to create any reality I chose crumbled to pieces. Confronting it made me wonder if everything I had ever known and believed in was a lie. In moments where the pain was so severe all I could do was lay as still as possible and count my breaths, I thought surely manifestation did have a limit and I had met it.
Identity, Manifesting Healing Chronic Illness, And The Physical Body
I talk about identity a lot in my work because it is the most important piece of manifestation and often gets overlooked. Our thoughts are important, but not more important that what who we “claim ourselves to be” as Neville Goddard says. This is especially important when we are manifesting healing chronic illness. We manifest everything from who we think are and as a result what we think is possible for us. My own experience with chronic illness is further proof of this.
I identified as someone who had always struggled physically. My body was “fussy”. It wasn’t resilient it seemed. I often felt weak, delicate, and incapable. This was such a deep part of how I perceived myself.
As I got older and finally gained some official diagnosis’s I only identified with these ideas more and made myself a part of various communities. I accepted the official spoonie warrior badge and believed at best I would learn to manage my symptoms and live as normally as I could.
I completely understand why past me did this and why you might have done this too. Giving a name to what has made us suffer, often invisibly, brings us peace. I was happiest when I had accepted my own limitations because I no longer had to wonder what my life would be like if I didn’t have them. It took away the longing for anything different because I had just accepted I would never have it. It is when I begin to dismantle this identity that the true mental struggle came. I existed in the in-between, not fully believing I could really heal and things could be different but also not accepting that I would be this way forever either. It was in that in-between that I suffered the most.
The thing that makes this whole thing even more difficult is the fact that identity is a stubborn thing. Everything in our culture sells us on this idea of finding ourselves as if who we are is a fixed thing. We are so sentimental over the things we think makes us, us. This is true for even the things we wish were different.
I had been debilitatingly anxious for most of my life and I hated every second of it but I still clung to it like a childhood blanket. I didn’t know who I was without it. It was so a part of me I couldn’t understand myself without it. This was true for my general state of un-wellness and manifesting healing chronic illness too. Who could I be if I didn’t spend most of my day in pain? What was it like to just be comfortable in your own body? If I did manage manifesting healing chronic illness what kind of life waited for me? I couldn’t even fathom it, and a part of me didn’t want to. It was too scary.
I had been a self proclaimed indoors type for as long as I could remember. Give me a book, headphones, and a warm drink and I can lose hours sitting in a single spot. I believed I was cautious by nature (physically at least) but without pain was that still the truth? Would painless me turn out to be some kind of dare devil? As I dug deeper and deeper and burned down everything about myself I had ever known all kinds of buried desires rose up. I wanted to learn to surf, to skii, to learn to use my body in ways that were thrilling and challenging.
So the first step to manifesting healing chronic illness and your physical body? Being willing to let go of who you think you are. Identity is the key here and is such a big part of creating a different reality because you can’t bypass it with thought alone. If you believe you are not someone who could ever do x or have x then you will not allow that change into your reality because it contradicts with who you think you are. And I was someone who didn’t believe I was healthy. Or maybe even could be. I had to practice at it. I am still nowhere near done practicing but here is what I know for sure:
If you look at how you identify yourself and what you believe to be true about yourself vs. what you are experiencing in your physical reality, you will find that they line up. You might have to dig deep. It might not be clear right away but keep digging and it will be. I wasn’t experiencing chronic illness and believing I was strong, capable, and worthy of health. For you it might not be what you believe about your physical body but what you believe about life itself and your relation to it. Do you think you are someone who bad things always seem to happen to? Does the physical world seem dangerous and out to get you? Do you think health is fragile and random, and that one day you can be totally fine and the next not?
I encourage you to write it all down and get familiar with how you see yourself, the words you use to describe yourself, and what you think is possible/impossible when it comes to your physical body, manifesting healing chronic illness and health.
Definitions and Manifesting Healing In Your Physical Body
Words and their meaning make up so much of our world. But it is important to inspect what our own definition of certain words are and ask ourselves are we using someone else’s definition in our own life? Let me give you an example.
Success has a lot of different meanings. There is a general consensus of what it means to be successful in society. This may or may not line up with your parents definition of what it means for you to be successful, but the most important definition is your own. How do you define success? What does your life look like when you are successful? This is important when it comes to manifesting healing chronic illness.
If you don’t know what successful means to you, how will you ever know that you are? You won’t. You will go around believing you are failing or behind because you are using some other definition.
This was exactly the case for me when it came to the word healthy. Society had one definition. My family had another. I didn’t seem to live up to either.
My family’s definition of health revolved around discipline and restriction. How much you were willing to discipline and restrict yourself had a direct result on your health. Eating a restricted diet void of ‘bad’ foods like carbs, sugar, and fried foods. Living a life free of what they considered risky behavior like extreme sports and traveling to unknown and ‘exotic’ locations where you could get stuck or risk something bad happening to you. The goal was to live as quietly and cautiously as possible. The world was presented as a scary place if we didn’t know to take the proper precautions we were not only asking for trouble but deserved the consequences.
After struggling with an eating disorder (which still wasn’t restrictive enough according to their standards) and living my life in the same little town I grew up in, I gave up. I would never be healthy according to that definition and I honestly wasn’t interested in being healthy if it meant I had to live my life that way. I let the chips fall where they may from that point on. Subconsciously I accepted the ‘consequences’ of my actions and in my mind at the time that meant accepting being unwell in trade for a full life.
Things began to completely change when I realized their definition wasn’t the only definition. If I looked at the word health according to Merriam Webster it simply meant: a person’s mental or physical condition. It was neutral. It didn’t have any qualifiers. Reading that prompted me to finally ask myself what did being healthy mean to me and was I already healthy by my own standard? I invite you to look at your own definitions and consciously rewrite any that don’t serve you. Once I did this it made it easier to believe the truth about the body and start manifesting healing chronic illness. The body is always innately moving towards healing. There is never anything we need to do to heal because that’s what the body is designed to. All we ever have to do is get out of the way of that process, and this starts with our beliefs.
The Law Of Assumption And Manifesting Healing In The Physical Body
If you have read or are familiar with any of my other work you have heard me talk about the law of attraction. The law of attraction is at the center of many manifestation teachings and for good reason. However, nothing has changed my life like discovering the teachings of mystic and lecturer Neville Goddard and one of his key concepts: The law of assumption. During this entire journey I dove deep into further study of metaphysics. Partly as a means of distraction and partly as a way to understand how I got to where I did, and how to dig myself out of what felt like a hole I had no clue how to get out of it.
The law of assumption is the idea that our reality is made up of our assumptions. We assume something about everything. Ourselves, our bodies, other people, and the world itself. Neville’s teachings tell us that these assumptions are at the heart of why our reality is the way it is and if we wish to change it, we must change our assumptions. It sounds simple because it is. But it was life changing.
I started with writing down everything I assumed about myself, my physical body, and health in general. I won’t share it all in this specific blog post but I will share some of the ones that made it abundantly clear to me why i was experiencing what I was experiencing.
- Our health is always deteriorating unless we are actively doing something (mainly disciplining or restricting. Things like diets and strict supplement routines) to maintain it.
- The body naturally declines as we get older.
- Status of health is random and fragile. Anything can happen at anytime.
- Healing takes a long time and a lot of discipline.
- My body is against me.
These were all assumptions I had that I didn’t know I had until I started exploring. Doing this belief work was very emotional and I had to take breaks in order to process the trauma I was digging up from my subconscious. In my own case, most of these beliefs came from my parents that I had taken on as my own. Even though it was painful, unearthing these beliefs became my very first proof that what Neville said was indeed true. Our assumptions make up our reality. Mine surely had.
So what came next? Changing my assumptions. It was simple but it did not prove to be easy for me. Some of these things I had believed for most of my life. It felt insurmountable some days but I started where I always start when I want to believe something radically different: I gathered proof that things could be different.
I started with learning the real truth and potential of the body. During this time I read a lot of Joe Dispenza’s work. I have linked his youtube channel if you want to get a taste of his work here but I recommend all of his books, especially You Are the Placebo. On some of my lowest days, I watched hours of his interviews and testimonials of the amazing things people had achieved with their bodies. It helped me believe and begin to know just how powerful the human body was and all that it could accomplish, including healing.
Neville’s work was also so important for me. One of his lectures specifically brought be great comfort when I felt helpless and powerless to change my own circumstances. It is linked here. It would be impossible to summarize all of his work here, but some of his key concepts and ideas that helped me specifically were:
- The 3D is the past. It is the result of the assumptions you have made and have nothing to do with the assumptions you are making now.
- There is no outside cause. The physical is not a cause. The only cause is your own human imagination.
- Refuse to accept anything that is not your ideal as final.
Refusing to accept my circumstances as final is what kept me afloat most days. No matter how bad things looked and felt and seemed I persisted in my new assumptions and refused to accept what was around me as the truth. Because Neville’s work is older, some of his wording and audio lectures can be hard to understand. There are a lot of people who teach Neville’s work but my favorite is Candace Thoth. I’ve linked her Youtube channel here. Her instagram is @awakenthegodself and it is also fantastic. I scrolled for hours when I first found her account.
Lastly, I watched others use their bodies in powerful ways. I was a dancer in high school but even while I was pushing my body and achieving incredible things with it, I never felt strong. Partly because of a very negative coach who mostly berated our entire team no matter how well we did. For me this looked like watching videos on youtube of gymnasts, kickboxers, figure skaters, and even aerial artists. I watched them to see and study how they trusted the power of their own bodies. Watching things like this was uplifting for me and I began to understand what it might look like for me to use my own body in fun and challenging ways.
Manifestation Has No Limit, Including Manifesting Healing In the Physical Body
This is my longest blog post yet! I am celebrating that majorly. I had and have a lot to say on this topic and will be writing about it much more in the future including more of my own healing story, what worked and what didn’t, and more about how as human beings we are truly limitless. What we see with our eyes is meaningless when it comes to what we can create.
I hope if you have even felt a fraction of the way I have felt, this blog post helps you. If you would like additional help on your manifestation journey (regarding healing or not) you can contact me by emailing email@example.com to sign up for text coaching. If you have been around a while you know I used to do more coaching, but I found coaching calls to be incompatible with my lifestyle and very energetically draining. But then I realized I didn’t have to do that in order to coach, I could just coach via text and audio message! This was much more compatible for my lifestyle and also an extremely effective way to coach.
One of my favorite things about having a coach in the past was the messenger support. I had the most breakthroughs there. When you are trying to manifest something new and change your own self concept, having daily support to accelerate the process is invaluable. This work is not a one and done fix, and it takes consistently shifting your perspective even when it looks like there’s no way in hell that things will ever be any different. Having support can make this process a lot easier. You can email me to talk more about this at firstname.lastname@example.org. Another blog post I think might be helpful for you is Does Manifestation Still Work During Tough Times.
I believe in and your power so deeply,
Until next time!